I learned a VERY valuable lesson this past week.
You know those times when you look at another person’s circumstance and you think to yourself, “How could he/she be so foolish?”
Smacks of judgment, doesn’t it?
I’m guilty of this at times but recently, God opened my eyes and humbled me greatly when I saw how incredibly easy it was for me to be foolish . . . not once but twice.
I love chocolate…and many things sugar.
I’ve been eating chocolate most of my life with very little restraint. Despite diabetes being in our family and despite being gestationally diabetic in my third pregnancy, I have stubbornly continued to foolishly consume endless amounts of chocolate over the years.
This was the first foolish decision.
Feeling invincible as a child, teenager and young mother, I always had chocolate in my pocket or purse but my worse chocolate habit was secured when I got older and settled into the evening hours with a stash of chocolate raisins or M&Ms while I watched a TV show or two.
Two weeks ago, my doctor called me and let me know that my glucose level was slightly elevated and that I needed to slow down on my sugar consumption. She did NOT advise me to cut sugar out of my diet “cold turkey” but I got so scared with the glucose number that I stopped eating chocolate and sugar completely.
This was the second foolish decision.
I just went through a really difficult week because of some very severe sugar withdrawal symptoms. Surprisingly enough, it wasn’t the psychological addiction that affected me – it was the physiological addiction.
My body was addicted to sugar . . . and I paid greatly.
Addiction. I got a waft of it this past week – a little window into the struggle and ramifications of withdrawal. A little more understanding into this pain.
I would have said before last week that I have not wrestled with addiction in my life but no more.
I would have asked that question, “How could he/she be so foolish?” before last week but no more.
Compassion has replaced judgment.
Please don’t get me wrong – I’m not comparing my sugar addiction to a more serious addiction to drugs or alcohol.
Or maybe I am. Addiction is addiction. I am deeply humbled.
What consumes your mind controls your life.
So, I won’t be eating chocolate every night anymore.
Everything is permissible for me–but not everything is beneficial. Everything is permissible for me–but I will not be mastered by anything. 1 Corinthians 6.12