A friend recently reminded me that when a pilot loses control of a plane, the process of getting that plane to the right level is called, “recovery from an unusual attitude.”
I’ve been thinking of this word picture for the past few days and I clearly see an attitude in my life that needs adjusting.
Truth be told, I feel like my bad attitude is justified. I want to hold onto my anger for a while longer.
I want my own way.
It’s ugly. Really ugly.
I also know that all this comes with a cost. My days have felt heavy and my body actually aches. There is no peace. Poor sleep. Sadness.
I have tunnel vision, in comparison to God’s big picture. He has shown Himself to be faithful, trustworthy and loving over and over again, yet I still go my own way.
I need to get down on my knees and talk to God. “Holy Spirit, have at it. Adjust my attitude. Adjust my spirit. I surrender. I want You to increase in my life and I to decrease. I want You more than my desire to be right.”
But I’m not there yet.
I know that I am as dependent on His manna of mercy as I am confident of His faithful forgiveness.
I need time with Him. Quiet, alone time.
So very thankful for a quiet afternoon.