I received a rejection letter today. I have been waiting for six weeks to hear whether this particular publishing company would be interested in publishing my book. Actually, six weeks is a relatively short time to wait to hear back – I’ve heard gruesome stories of writers who wait many months before they get any response – so I’m thankful that it was only six weeks. The waiting was hard.
Can I tell you how disappointed I felt? It took the wind right out of my sails. It felt terrible and it was tough to get back on my chair and keep writing. Maybe it was a good thing that my laptop was acting up for a good part of the late afternoon because I don’t think I would have been very productive.
To be honest, I lost perspective for a short while. There were some tears. The negative thoughts started to bombard my mind, I considered giving up and I started thinking of finding a “real” job that pays.
I am trying to keep this real so I will say that I am feeling pretty discouraged at the moment.
But these feelings will pass. I know that. Tomorrow is another day.
A few weeks ago,I was energized by the following quote – it articulated so beautifully why I blog. I like looking for God in my days.
We encounter God in the ordinariness of life, not in the search for spiritual highs and extraordinary mystical experiences, but in our simple presence in life. Brennan Manning
Disappointment is a very big part of “the ordinariness of life“, isn’t it? It’s certainly not the first time I have felt it and I know it won’t be the last. The truth is that God reigns this day as He does every day and I choose Him, regardless of these circumstances or how “crappy” I feel right now.
I’m really not sure what the next step is. So, I think I will have a nice quiet dinner with my husband and then I’ll snuggle up beside him on the couch and we’ ll watch Idol together.
Like I said, tomorrow is another day…and there is a book to be finished.