The words stung because they were true.
Three separate times in one week, different people mentioned to me that I have a tendency to be late. Of course, my first response was to disagree with this sweeping statement or to justify why I was late that particular time. It painfully reminded me of the lesson I learned with my trapezoid-shaped crocheted blanket. (See June 17th post) The irritating reality of it all is that it’s true. It seems to have become a pattern in my life as of late (no pun intended) and as much as I didn’t want to hear it, I am thankful that I have good friends who are willing to tell me the truth. I learned many years ago that when you are late, you are nonverbally communicating that your time is more important than the other person’s time. Simply put – it’s inconsiderate of others. Period.
So, I need to change. It’s part of being a life-long learner, isn’t it? It’s foolishness for anyone to believe that he/she has life all figured out. Getting older and hopefully wiser is not about arriving – it’s about the life long process ofbecoming. As I grow spiritually, I am more cognizant of my sin and selfishness. But I don’t want to stop there. I want to unabashedly run to Jesus every day, seeking help and believing that He can change me. How empowering it is to know that I can live in a place of grace and hope because of what Jesus did not on the cross. He didn’t die on the cross for perfect people. He died for sinners… and I am a sinner.
Lord, may I never be afraid to confess sin or admit weakness. This is where I want to start – on my knees, looking to You as my Hope in this world.
Thank you, Lord for faithful friends who are willing to stab me in the front – who lovingly tell me truth, who pray for me and encourage me to change from the inside out.
I recently read an interesting quote that twanged my heartstrings.
It’s a puzzling thing. The truth knocks on the door and you say, ‘Go away, I’m looking for the truth.’ And so it goes away. Puzzling. Robert M. Pirsig
I don’t want to close the door on truth. As painful or humbling or embarrassing as it might be, there is freedom in repentance and confidence in knowing that He will show the way. Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. John 14.6
There is hope for me.
Faithful are the wounds of a friend. Proverbs 27.6