It took me a quite a while to give in and start texting; my son was shocked when he received his first text from me. But I love it now. I love it because I have instant access to my kids and I really enjoy hearing about their days.
Now, you might be thinking “Oh blah-blah-blah” but it’s actually a small part of the miracle that is happening before my eyes.
Our family is healing. Slowly but surely, dynamics are changing in our family.
to heal – to harmonize…yes…to rejuvenate…to mend…yes…to make sound…yes…to minister to…yes…to revive, to settle, to restore…yes, YES and YES!
Our family was together when the children were young…and I have beautiful scrapbooks, filled with precious family memories. When my husband left our family in 1998, it was such a painful time, I could hardly breathe. I had no idea it was coming and the dark days that followed were horrendous – six years of long, busy days, unspeakable sadness, disappointment, loneliness, anger, feelings of hopelessness and often being overwhelmed – as I watched our daughters deeply struggle, our son try to deal with all the uncertainty and inconsistencies and their dad starting a new life, without any of us.
He made some mighty renovations in my life. I grew up and I hung onto God like never before. He rebuilt me…from the inside out. He helped me deal with my failures and He lovingly showed me where I went wrong. He gave me the strength to “choose the high road” in all my decisions and He gave me wisdom to love my hurting daughters with boundaries and compassion. He gave me physical endurance to drive to all my son’s basketball and hockey games and to work a demanding, yet very fulfilling job. I experienced great comfort from His Word and the quiet peace of a clean conscience.
When we least expected it, He also blessed Dawne, Danae, Drew and I with Little Phoenie, Big Chris and French Guy, our new son-in-law.
Our family is being rebuilt. We are all changing, growing, understanding more, accepting and wanting to be with each other, making better decisions, laughing together, helping…listening…loving…healing. It takes time.
…and it makes me cry, just thinking about all that God has done.