When Jesus was born and during the years that he “grew in wisdom and stature and in favor with God and men,” his mother Mary quietly watched, “treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart”. The scriptures don’t elaborate on what she was considering so deeply and thoroughly but when I read this story, I can’t help but think, “Now, doesn’t that just sound like something a mother would do?” Mary tucked away all her precious memories and in the quiet moments of her day, reflected on what God had done. Life certainly did not unfold the way Mary must have dreamed about when she was younger – nor did she conceive a child in a way that was culturally accepted or understood. I’m sure that she was the object of many people’s ridicule and judgment because that’s just the way people are. Yet, she quietly stood back and pondered it all.
When I was in high school, my best friend and I used to sit in her kitchen, eat raisins and peanuts into the wee hours of the morning and play this game where we would try to picture and describe our future jobs, husbands, houses and kids. I can distinctly remember imagining a white picket fence, a forever marriage, lots of kids running and cartwheeling around a big back yard, a warm house with lots of chunky, wooden furniture and fresh smelling sheets hanging from the clothesline.
Life did not unfold the way I envisioned either – for me or my children – and I have spent many hours pondering that reality. I made mistakes and my husband made mistakes and my children have made mistakes and life is oh, so messy. Yet, here I am. The grace of God has brought me to this wonderful place when my firstborn is getting married to a man who fell in love with and cherishes both her and her son – it was a package deal.
I could never have envisioned my life as it is now but I watch God continue to pick up the broken pieces, heal my heart and faithfully pursue the heart of every person in our growing family.
On Saturday afternoon, Chris is walking Dawne down the aisle and I am wearing high heeled shoes! Who woulda’ ever thunk-it?
Great are the works of the Lord; they are pondered by all who delight in them. Psalm 111.2