Three friends came for lunch on this gray and cloudy day. It was good to connect and catch up on all the ins and outs of our lives. We laughed, we ate, we told stories and we made plans to meet again.
Nearing the end of our time together, one friend mentioned some news. It was good news…glorious news about a mutual friend…but I wasn’t prepared for the onslaught of emotions that were triggered in my heart.
It was wonderful news about a “once upon a time” dear friend but unresolved conflict had torn us apart.
Such a pushing and pulling of my heart.
Such a contrast of deeply felt emotions – truly celebrating the news, yet deeply mourning the loss of this friend all over again. How can I feel giddy with happiness and lightning-bolted with sadness at the same time? Ah…the messiness of life.
My friends left and I was alone for a while. Well, God was with me. God is with me.
What do I do with these feelings?
Stop for a while…feel for a while…rejoice and mourn, painful and confusing as it is – and then place this situation at the foot of the cross and walk away. I can’t deny the inflamed sadness but I know it will die down again. It’s part of who I have become and I am comforted that God knows it all.
Broken relationships are part of a broken world. You don’t always get what you want. There is so much that I don’t understand but I need to focus on the Truth because He comforts and He gives Hope.
That’s what I believe.
If possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. Romans 12:18