All funny stories aside, my time away in Ohio was very life impacting.
On the second day of my travels, I picked up this little stone (seen in featured image) at a tiny little store. I had no idea why it appealed to me but it turned out to be a very significant message throughout the week.
I have officially begun a two year program that will move me towards becoming an accredited spiritual director. I have no idea where God is taking me with this but I do know that without question, choosing this journey has been a very natural next step for me. I use the word, “journey” because it’s as much, if not more my own own spiritual journey that moves me this direction as opposed to the final accreditation at the end. This program doesn’t qualify me to offer any therapeutic modality to others – only the ability to help position others before God in a safe place. The modality is formational prayer – not therapy, counselling, mentoring or life coaching.
I have so much to learn.
The theme of the week was awareness – finding God in all things.
Knowing there is something of heaven in every earthly moment. Always.
Living with the deep truth that Jesus knows me. This I love. Always.
Being confident that something’s being formed in me. Always.
Wanting to choose what better leads me to God’s deepening life in me. Always.
In preparation for this first residency, I spent a great deal of time in a book entitled, Moment by Moment by Smith and Merz who write, “Our lives are given to us moment by moment by a God who is gracious, faithful and energetically creative in interacting with us. We give our response to God moment by moment in the midst of the ordinary events of our lives.” The structure of the book is reflective of The Spiritual Exercises of St. Ignatius of Loyala, a sixteenth century text “containing a variety of prayer experiences intended to occasion a conversion of heart and mind so that a person may follow Jesus with greater faith, love and freedom.” I can’t tell you how happy I was to hurry down to my little space and warm blanket to welcome Him each morning for the 32 days I rested in this book. (Luke 10.1-10)
Without question, as I packed my bags in preparation for my week away, my greatest internal struggle was the result of being unable to sincerely pray the following words written by St. Ignatius:
Take Lord and receive all my liberty, my memory, my understanding and and my entire will – all that I have and call my own. You have give it all to me. To you, Lord, I return it. Everything is yours, do with it what you will. Give me only your love and grace. That is enough for me. Spiritual Exercise 234
So, this sacred journey unfolds.
I am becoming more aware of God’s awareness of me and with an open heart, I am learning to receive the gift of the present moment.
Why is it so much work to be still?