Everybody has them – days when you really feel the weight of the world. Today was one of those days for me. Actually, I’ve been feeling down for a couple of days.
When I feel down, it’s most often because I feel disconnected to the ones I love and that can happen for a myriad of reasons. Life crowds in and overwhelms me with people’s wounded spirits, demands, losses, frustrations, unmet expectations, fears and sadness. Most days, I’m up for the task to come along side, empathize, ask questions and love but sometimes, I’m just not able to “take the bull by the horns” and move forward. On these kind of days, I am indecisive, teary eyed, slow to move and a little more mindful of heaven.
C.S. Lewis once said, “A continual looking forward to the eternal world is not a form of escapism or wishful thinking, but one of the things a Christian is meant to do.” The older I get, the more I understand these wise words.
When our grandson, Phoenie, was two years old and learning how to talk, he left a message on our phone. It had been a very long day and I was exhausted. I was about to collapse on the living sofa when I saw the blinking light on the phone, indicating a message, waiting to be heard. This is what Phoenie wanted to say:
“I yuv my yife, Nana…I yuv my yife.”
I have never forgotten those words. I “yuv my yife” too. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t thank God for the richness and beauty in my life. I acknowledge God’s goodness when life goes well and when life hurts. I am confidence of God’s presence when life is predictable and when life is unstable. I trust God whether life is “going my way” and when it is not. I do “yuv my yife” but sometimes, I just feel weary on this earth. Sometimes, I long for heaven and I do think that this longing is “one of those things a Christian is meant to do.”
Today has been the day that the Lord has made.
Tonight, I look forward to having my husband’s loving arms wrapped around me as I fall asleep.
…and tomorrow?….well, there is always hope.
Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake. Victor Hugo