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I recently received the following note from a friend.

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Dear Ones,

  Here is the third installment from John Henry Jowett on improving our spiritual memory.
You have forgotten the God of your salvation, and have not remembered the Rock of you refuge. (Isaiah 17:10)
Here is a forgetfulness that is born when we have recovered from some weakness.  Our weakness helps our remembrance of God; our strength is the friend of forgetfulness. Our strength is really our drug. It is the opiate which ministers to spiritual forgetfulness. It helps to create a feeling of independence, and we become unmindful of our God.
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I say a very big AMEN to this truth.

I miss the intimacy with Jesus that I experienced when I went through my darkest days. I breathed in Jesus as endlessly painful and complicated days unfolded. My inabilities, lack of control, fears and deep fatigue pushed me to the foot of the cross in a way that I have never experienced since. The journal entries of those painful years are dripping with laments and desperations, tears and sadness. These words, “Lord, if you are not real, if you do not come for me, I will not survive.” felt desperate but they screamed from the depth of our beings.

 But God — He came for me. He was my anchor in the storms, my Refuge in the chaos.

I am thankful for this season in my life when there is margin and joy but I has also learned to trust God in the wounded places of my heart. These are scary places that I do not naturally want to visit but because God has shown Himself to be faithful, present and loving, I can know without question that He has me.

He covers me. He is mindful of me. He is alert, focused, paying attention. He notices everything in my life.

For he has been mindful of the humble state of his servant. Luke 1:48a (NIV)

Because He loves me, I willingly go into the lonely, painful, triggering experiences of my life so that I can better understand who I am. Being at the end of self “feels” terrible but it isn’t such a bad place to be because weakness is the birthplace of vulnerability and awareness of need. This is where He meets me.

I do not want to ever be unmindful of God. He is ever mindful of me.

 

2 Comments

  1. Raw truth and honesty…. Your vulnerability is such a gift.
    We have all been at the end of ourselves …….but I too long for all to meet our Lord there at the end of themselves, and at foot of the cross ….For in Him alone is mercy, peace and healing strength.

    • Diane (Author)

      I’m with you, sista! 🙂

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